To the one I have distanced myself from,

 To the one I have distanced myself from,

Sometimes, the heart doesn’t know what it wants until it finds out what it wants. And I thought distancing myself from you could help my heart a little. It was an instict and I am not very proud of it.

You were everything I ever wanted. We understood each other well and had great complementary strength. I had opened up to you more than I had ever before to anyone. You bought out the best in me.

But I think the spark disappeared. It all started with mere disagreement on things. And turned out that we wanted different things in life. Basically, we grew up.

The time we lost contact, I went through a bit of a rough patch. Eventually, I realised that I am a catalyst to my own happiness and maybe, what’s coming is better than what’s gone.

There have been days when I have wanted to talk to you so bad and it wasn’t easy to convince myself that it’s not the same anymore. I am trying to embrace all of these changes, but I am having trouble adjusting to it.

I often think that I have a major self destructive streak in me. Well, I had to do what’s right. It was either living with myself or being happy. I chose the former. At the end of the day, It doesn’t matter who you have been with, it matters who you end up with.

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